sounds of  the motors muffle along

as a masked-up widow reunited with her only

son siblings throwing maroon pigskin in the

air perhaps for the first time in a year

middle-aged fathers holding back a

tear wait. It wasn’t.

“men don’t cry,” they tell

themselves It was just fear.

dread. helplessness. death.

but not tears

 

a cacophony of clothes circling the

streets fridges, tv screens, microwaves

entering the backdoors of motorized

beasts peculiar families piqued

as 24/7 news machines generate

terror on a never-ending-cycle of

mass hysteria

 

just now: biochemical warfare

has been initiated in people head’s

all rational minds have been wiped out

 

quarantined to their own

devices the audience-less music

the laughter-less

comic the crowd-less

arena

was playing on the family’s

radio with their SUVs already

brim-full of toilet paper, meat,

and Purell Inside I see a

passport

burning on the dashboard

one coughing sister almost never got

back as wanderlust was curbed

as death tolls revved

up as panic

accelerated

as groceries were blindsided

as a new Plague crashed into Wuhan

as epidemiologists became mobile tv

celebrities as the flu took the back seat

and Darwinian survivalism sat on the driver’

seat as tribalism blazed the engine fumes

and as boppling opinions shouted to life an invisible

virus that simply revealed humanity’s moral ills

to every rearview mirror

 

and there was I

with my body as my sole (soul) vehicle

millenia of miles away from family

without a care for the wind nor for my seeming

isolation feet at perpetual unencumbered motion

fantasizing what worlds awaited me

 

in the wake of a single moment of clarity

only visible to those who mine their

minds and are in touch with the

magnum opioid of their surrounding

mindfulness

There I traversed a world

undiscovered

no vitamins nor antibiotics

just the soothing medicine

of sauntering.

 

where:

A troupe of deer grazed in unison

a lone squirrel chasing after the ether

mourning doves orchestrating a salient

symphony desolate dormitories whistling with

the wind voluptuous Maples exposing their

naked branches Isles of virgin grass untouched

statues stuck in solitary sand

winding roads longing to converse with

wheels hills calling out to mountain friends

the fumbled fog reaching towards the spring

sky all socially distanced

inevitably falling

short void

Of

Sun

 

At peak of the valley where years ago

my teenage self would howl

Boring, depressing,

loneliness! In such a secluded

abyss

I unearthed isolation’s bliss

Silence whispered a sacred

secret

Stillness gave light to a mourning muse

And in that space between clarity and virality

I stared at the imperceivable fibre that breathes

life That witnesses to God’s mercy and his wrath

That the molecules in my body knew to be its final resting

place That called itself Nature

Then…

I left.

Adrian Suarez